Opportunity knocks only but once.

Missing those opportunities will back fire against you in the future. They're called regrets...

Once again I find myself scouring the search engines of Jobstreet and Jobsdb. Waiting is really a taxing job - compared to really working on the job.  Sheesh if waiting was a real job, people would have earned millions just doing it. Then again, that cannot happen.

I'm resigning because of many reasons. Most of these reasons are a horrible hybrid of professional and personal reasons and bad experiences in the past.

Salary. What else? The company has a very primitive compensation package compared to the market. Most people my age working in the same profession in a BPO earns twice what I get every cutoff. And working with that kind of compensation is really hurtful given the daily expenses I incur. I spend 90 pesos everyday for a trip from home to Ayala and vise versa. Even if I pack my own lunch to cut back on costs, I still end up saving nothing for myself.

Training. Trainings are limited. The company believes you can get far with PhP 800 per head a year for training. Yegads, what iota of learning will you get with that kind of budget? It is understandable the company is scrimping on training expenses.. if they can provide a good alternative. Unfortunately, even internal trainings are very limited.. given the subject matter experts available or even a person competent enough to teach you a thing or two relevant to your work.

Opportunities. The choices are endless. None of them however, interests me anymore. This is somehow tied up with the training factor. It is true that there is fairly wide smorgasbord of careers within the company. However, YOU have to make your own way to reach that position and make your own way again learning the ropes of the position. The company believes in throwing someone in the middle of the ocean and praying to heavens that you'll learn how to swim. I wonder if they also know what setting up for failure means.. Or guidance... Oh right, they don't. They don't know both.

Experience. I have a lot. I gained alot in more than a year here than in my previous call center. I also gained a lot of scars, scars that were hard to heal and even harder to erase. Fucking up a major project was the first. Simply because my bosses then decided to give the project to an unfortunate newbie named me, who knew nothing of the company policies on procurement, knew nothing of video editing or script writing, who barely knew everyone in the company when the project required knowing important names and personalities because this was an awards night - the first ever in the industry. And the best part of this project? They blame me for their mistake. Huwaw. Talk about judgement.... Leche..

It was hard to regain trust within the section I belonged to after the event. Call it paranoia but I believe the experience has turned me into the butt of all jokes. No matter how much they tell "joke lang", it still reminds me how bad the experience was. The jokes were not funny. It's other permutations were way worse than the ones directly related to it.

The second one was worse. You can forget anyone in the team. But forgetting employee no. 3 is by far the worst. If you want to know the details, shoot me a message. I can discuss the details over coffee (it's on me, don't worry) and you'll get more than just a simple yarn.

yeah, it's that horrible I can't even post it here.

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Someone told me that I shouldn't take everything personally. Apota, I work my ass off in everything I do, how do you think you can separate your personality from your work?....

 I still have a long way before I master that discipline. For now, all I can do is minimize my ranting.

And so I scour the pages of Jobstreet and Jobsdb. Everyday. Everynight.






Looking for a job, hoping to start a clean slate.